His true feelings




(Playing with Daddy before work two days ago)

Sometimes I wonder what Bubbers really thinks about his little brother.  I mean, how does he really feel about this little person who destroys his train tracks and clobbers his toes while barreling around in a walker?

Today at Target, I found out.

We had just returned a hat I didn’t want anymore when Bubbers sweetly requested to look at some toys.  I couldn’t resist, so I allowed us both to peruse the “Dollar Section”.

Scooters patiently waited for us in his umbrella stroller while I smiled to myself and seriously considered buying Charming a Whoopie cushion.

A few kids meandered over with their mother.  Bubbers looked up at them and then down at his brother, kicking his little feet in the stroller.

“His name is Scooters,” Bubbers explained matter-of-factly to the nearest kid, “He says, “Beh-beh!”.  Sometimes he spits up on you.  And sometimes he drools on you.”

I blinked.

And then smiled.

Well, there you have it, Heidi! I thought with a little chuckle.

Then I reluctantly put back the Whoopie cushion.

More conversations…

This morning:

“Mommy, sing the ant song!” Bubbers requested sweetly.

“Okay!” I agreed and began singing.

When I got to the seventh verse, I sang, “The ants go marching seven by seven, hurrah!  hurrah!  The ants go marching seven by seven, hurrah!  hurrah!  The ants go marching seven by seven, the little one stops to pray to heaven, and they all go marching down to the ground, away from the rain, boom, boom, boom!”

Bubbers interrupted me, “Why did the ant pray to heaven?”

“Because he wanted to talk to God,” I answered.

Then Bubbers cocked his head and asked, “A god ant?”


Last night at 7:15 pm:

“Mommy!  Moooommmmyyyyy!!” Bubbers called from his crib only 15 minutes after going to bed.

I ran up the stairs and quietly opened Bubbers’ door.

“Hey there, what’s going on?” I asked softly as I entered Bubbers’ dark room.

“My buddy fell out!” Bubbers pointed to his little Lumpy who was lying on the ground near his crib.

“Oh!  Let me get him,” I said as I picked up the little elephant and tucked it under Bubbers’ left arm.  Then I adjusted his covers and patted his head.

Just as I was about to leave, Bubbers asked, “Did he go up in the clouds?”

“Who?” I asked.

“Did Jesus go up in the clouds?”

“Yes, He did,” I answered.

“Why?” Bubbers asked his favorite question.

“Well, His mission was done.  It was time for other people to teach His Gospel,” I answered the best I could.

“Why did the girl die?” Bubbers continued.

“What girl?…” I asked and then guessed, “The girl that Jesus raised from the dead?”

“Yes,” Bubbers answered, “Why did she die?”

“Her body didn’t work anymore, so her spirit left,” I answered and hoped it made sense.

“What’s a spirit?”

“Well…  I’m not really sure,” I said, “I know that we have a spirit body that Heavenly Father created.  That goes inside our physical bodies.”

“What’s a physical body?”

“It’s this,” I said as I gently patted his back.  “It’s flesh and blood and it’s a very, very special gift from God.”


I smiled, “Because it allows us to do things we can’t do with our spirit bodies.”

We talked about some of the things we can do with our physical bodies and then Bubbers abruptly said, “I’m spinning now, so you can go,” and he motioned for me to leave.

I smiled and shook my head.  How quickly he bounces from deep spiritual topics to pretending to be the Magic School Bus! :)

Our conversation…

“Mommy, when is Jesus coming?” Bubbers asked from his car seat as I was wrestling a stroller out of the back of the car for an impromptu park play date.

“Oof!” I grunted as I got it out and set it down on the pavement.

“I don’t know,” I finally responded to my son, “Nobody knows except Heavenly Father…  That’s why we always need to be ready for Him.”

Almost immediately, Bubbers called out, “I’m ready!!”

I smiled at his unexpected response.

Then I cocked my head and said, “I’m ready, too!”