Heidi October 13th, 2013
I’m having a baby this week! And boy are we excited. The light at the end of the tunnel never looked so bright.
This was back at 36 weeks. Things have been very rough, but there have been many, many blessings both seen and unseen.
Prevacid cured my acid reflux and headaches, which was a tremendous blessing. I felt so much better, enjoyed my food and slept soundly again. Thank you!!!
This was me today at 38 weeks and 4 days. We pulled out the tape measure and the belly is 47 inches around. Not as big as last time, which is also a blessing. It’s still hard to get around, but my efforts to gain less weight have helped so much in my stamina and mobility.
My two canes, walker and wheelchair have also been wonderful blessings. I use my walker to help me set the table, move things around the house or be a seat while I cook simple meals. And the wheelchair gave me an exciting date night out with my husband, who made me laugh as he pushed me all around Walmart. Who knew you could miss shopping at Walmart? :)
My OB and PT have been very happy with how well things have held together for me here at the end. I think we all wondered just how bad it would get and I’m grateful I’ve been functional the whole time (knock on wood!).
My left arm pains from last pregnancy have returned and that’s miserable. But it held off until now which was wonderful, especially because it’s very difficult for me to lay down for the traction to fix it. My poor SI joints scream in agony with all the baby weight pressing down on them.
My church family has been wonderful. They ask how I’m doing, give encouragement and offers to help and often have me in tears from their kindness. It’s uncomfortable for me to be in the spotlight with all of this, but there’s no way around it, because I need the comfort and strength of church– the Spirit, the lessons, the testimonies and the love.
The boys and Charming have been amazing troopers. They help out with everything I can’t do without complaining and are excited to have a new baby in the house. We all miss Mommy being able to play and go out. Sometimes it feels like I’ve been disabled forever and will be disabled forever. But I know it will all be worth it when I hear him cry for the first time and hold him in my arms. And I know my children have learned a depth of compassion and work ethic they never would have this young, but it’s hard to be the reason they learned it. I’ve also shed many a tear on the days when I feel like I’ve been pushed to my limit and I’m sad, because I don’t think I can do this again. Even through it all, my heart still wants to have more babies.
I’m very grateful we made it. And I’m very grateful the adorable end is near when I can start mending again and be the wife and Mommy I’ve missed being. Thank you, everyone, for your love and support. It’s meant the world to us.
- Sir Joo-Jee