Heidi June 6th, 2009
These pictures were taken on my last day alone with the Bubbers King.
I can’t remember when it hit me that day, but it did.
I stopped and looked at my son and thought, “This is my last day alone with him. After today, my Mom and husband will be here. And then we’ll go to the hospital. And when we come back, the Bubbers King and I won’t be alone anymore.”
After that realization, I tried to make the most of it.
I still had work to do in preparation for the baby and my Mom’s visit, but I tried to work in a lot of Bubbers time, too.
So every time he asked, “Mommy, play with you??”
I looked at him, smiled, stopped what I was doing and said, “Yes! I’ll play with you.”
And I heaved my gargantuan belly to the floor to play trains. Or a round of Don’t Break the Ice.
And when he asked, “Mommy, read to you?”
I looked at him, smiled, stopped what I was doing and said, “Yes! I would love to read to you.”
And we cuddled on the couch as I read him Arthur stories.
And at one point during the day, I gave him a hug and said, “Bubbers? Today is our last day alone together.”
He looked at me and I could tell he didn’t really understand.
But I continued to look him in the eyes and said, “Bubbers? Thank you for the past two years.”
“I have loved our time together and I’m so grateful for it.”
Again, he listened, but didn’t really understand.
And that night when we said his bedtime prayer, I thanked Heavenly Father for two wonderful years with my son. And for a sweet last day alone with him.
And after he went to sleep, I had myself a good cry.
And I thanked Heavenly Father again for giving me my precious little buddy. And for giving us two priceless years together.
And Heavenly Father understood.