Heidi July 26th, 2008
Every Sunday, my dear friend Jesse writes a post about her blessings from the week.
And every Sunday I look forward to reading them.
And I’ve often thought about borrowing her idea (without permission–sorry, Jheshe!), but never felt like the moment was right….. Until now.
I had a miscarriage today.
And while it was easily the most physically painful experience of my life, I’d like to share the tremendous blessings that accompanied it.
The blessings that helped Charming and I both acknowledge and be grateful for God’s tender mercies.
- Charming. He was amazing. He was caring, understanding and a wonderful coach. There’s no way I could have done it without him and I wouldn’t have wanted to go through it with anyone else.
- The Wooga Man. With a single smile or a dear laugh, he could instantly lift my spirits and make me forget what was going on. He was a constant source of joy amidst tragedy.
- A Priesthood Blessing. When I didn’t think I could handle anymore, dear Charming gave me a Priesthood Blessing that gave me the instant comfort and assurance that I absolutely needed to get through the worst part.
- Perfect Timing. It started before Charming went to work yesterday, so he was able to stay home and be with me and take care of the Wooga man. And then the most painful part didn’t happen until after the Wooga man went to bed tonight, so he didn’t have to see it and Charming was able to focus all his attention on nursing me through it.
- My Dear Neighbor Katie. At one point, I thought I was having complications and needed to go to the hospital. So Charming called our neighbor, Katie, who was absolutely wonderful and willing to come over and be with the sleeping Bubbers while we left. But then the pain ended not long after the phone call, so we didn’t need her to come. Later on, she emailed and said that she and the three children with her had all said a prayer for me after Charming had called, which touched me so much and undoubtedly contributed to the relief I felt at that exact moment. Thank you, Katie!
- Not Taken by Surprise. Because of the ultrasound, we had fair warning that a miscarriage could happen, so we had a plan (thank you, Charlotte for telling me we needed one!) and we had a prescription for pain medication. Which brings me to…..
- Modern Medicine. Blessed codeine allowed me to be relatively comfortable until the end. And then I’m fairly certain nothing on earth (except, perhaps, unconsciousness) would have eased that pain. And even though I asked Charming to hit me over the head with our heaviest frying pan, he wouldn’t do it. (The only thing I asked for that he wouldn’t do!)
- Your Prayers. There is no doubt in my mind that your prayers helped all of us through this intensely difficult time. I am humbled by your love and sincere friendships that you give to us so freely–whether or not you’ve even met us. You are wonderful. Thank you so very much.
- Nature’s Course. I’m grateful that my body was able to take care of this on its own, without the need for medical intervention. And I’m grateful for the uncanny, seemingly immediate recovery that came after it was all over.
- The Atonement of Christ. I knew with absolute surety that Christ knew exactly what I was going through, had suffered my pains and was there with me through mine.
- Eternal Families. While I wept for the loss of my little one, I knew the child was not lost to me forever. But was, in reality, eternally sealed to our family because of our marriage in a temple of God. And I knew that if the child was not able to successfully come to our family in this life, that I would be able to cherish, love and raise my child in the next life.
- My miscarriage