First Haircut: My Baby

April 9th, 2008

As many of you noticed in yesterday’s post, Bubbers was sporting some downright darling little curls at the nape of his neck.

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Both Charming and I have curl to our hair, so it’s really fun for me to see it showing up in our sweet boy.

But I have to admit, while I think it’s just adorable–it does give our masculine Bubbers king a strong hint of femininity that wasn’t there before and brings discomfort to my heart to think he may be mistaken for a girl.

So I thought that maybe, possibly, at some point in time I should give him a haircut.

And then my mother heart started to ache.

I can’t give him a haircut! I thought with sadness. He’s not even a year old, yet!

And if I give him a haircut, that means he’s growing up.

And if he’s growing up, that means he’s not a baby anymore.

[Holy smokes! I’m getting all choked up just writing this…..]

So, I put it off and I put it off, until I knew I couldn’t put it off anymore.

And one day I decided, Today is the day.

I am going to cut Bubbers’ hair after his morning nap.

So, I planned it all out and got it all ready.

And then I made the best decision ever.

Instead of laying Bubbers down in his crib for his morning nap, I held him in my arms while he laid his dear head against my shoulder.

And I walked around his darkened room, gently patting his sweet little back and humming the “I love you Bubbers, oh yes I do” song.

[Oh boy, the tear factory’s in full swing now…..]

And his little body completely relaxed and his precious breaths became regular and peaceful.

Then I sat in the rocker and held my little boy close as he slept.

And I remembered all those times he used to sleep in my arms as a newborn. Those times I never thought would end.

And I smiled and pressed my cheek against his dear head. He was my baby again. Safe in my loving arms.

After thirty minutes, he woke up and looked at me. We smiled at each other and I felt so close to him.

Then I nursed him and his little eyes closed and he fell asleep again.

I looked down at his long eyelashes casting shadows on his cheeks and his small hand holding tightly to my thumb.

And I was content.

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6 Comments

m | 4/9/2008 10:32 am

That was beautiful and made me a little teary, too. I love how much you love him. I love the two of you.

 
Melissa | 4/9/2008 10:56 am

What a sweet post, Heidi! Thank you for sharing those moments with us. :)

That first haircut is so hard!!! I know exactly how you feel – about the haircut meaning he’s not a baby anymore, etc. Matt got his first haircut at about 11 mos., and Jacob really needed one at almost 9 mos. With Jacob I took lots of pics (from diff. angles) before his haircut, so I’d remember his baby hair perfectly…

I have to tell you though, w/ ea of the boys I instantly fell in love with their “new look”. :) They both looked that much more “boy” to me afterward, and I loved that.

Would it be easier for you if you didn’t have to do it yourself? The lady who cut baby Jacob’s hair only charges $1 per year of age (!) for kiddos. She’s too far from us now, or I’d still take my kids to her – she knows just how to work with little, wiggly kids and she was even very careful to save some of Jacob’s hair in an envelope for me so I could remember his angel-soft baby hair. :) Anyway, if you want her name/number let me know.

Either way, I can’t wait to see pics when he does have his hair cut – I’m sure he’ll be as adorable as ever! :)

 
Wandering nana | 4/9/2008 2:47 pm

Oh my word, I got emotional reading this because I remember when I held my little girls and now I’m holding their little girls and boys and my oldest, first boy, first grandchild is going to be 12yrs old in December (and he will hug me but not let me hold him). I loved watching them though… I got to witness so many wonderful things in their lives and how excited I was for them to experience the wonderful things that I had. And now the time has come to watch them repeat that same wonderful life as I did with them. Hold him tight and leave those beautiful curls (no way does he look like a girl!) and enjoy every minute with that sweet little boy and watch him as he discovers the wonderful things you have.”)

 
alycia | 4/9/2008 2:47 pm

It’s funny when I was reading this at first I thought you said that you and Charming both had to curl your hair not that you both have curl to your hair… I sat for a minute and wondered why in the world Charming would ever have to curl his hair… I guess you never know with him. :) Just kidding. Anyway, I know what you mean about them growing up fast and not being babies anymore, I feel like Preston has been trying to grow up too fast from the beginning and I do miss that when he was younger he would love to cuddle with me all the time to fall asleep. Now he would much rather have me just leave him alone in his crib, which I really am thankful for, but I do love it on those days when he decides he wants to have me close.

 
Ailene Hert | 4/9/2008 3:26 pm

Don’t worry… he’ll look super cute without the curls on the back of his head! Does it ever get curly on the top? Cause short sides with a curly top would look super cute too… :)

As long as he’s wearing boy clothes… hopefully most people will know that he’s a boy!

 
tearese | 4/9/2008 3:29 pm

was his hair cut in the Conference Pictures then? Is that why he looked different and older?
I don’t think Joshua will need a haircut until he is about three.

 

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